The Party:
What could I be? I had a few options before the party this
weekend. I could be a fairy, a devil and I think I could scrape together a good
vampire. I was going with a group of friends, this was a second-hand invite. We
met at my house and get our pre-funk on, then we called the Hive-Mind car
service and all packed into a large van.
I went as a vampire, my face makeup exaggerating my eyes and
lips. I wore an old club corset and even got some nice quality fangs. Talking
was a little awkward at first, but I got used to them. One of my friends
dressed as a pharaoh, specifically King Ramses the second. He did some research and discovered he lived
to like 90+ and probably spanned 3 lifetimes of his subjects. He had a whole
story planned about the point in history, the gold face paint and pharaoh hat
were top notch.
My other friends went as a nurse and a doctor. They brought
2 fake limbs for “amputating” other people at the party. We were the beginning
of a bad joke; a nurse, a pharaoh and a vampire go to the doctor and ask for
help. That is as far as we got, giggling
to ourselves in the van. The pharaoh looked up bad pharaoh jokes on his device
and the nurse squirmed in her latex skirt.
We got to the party a little earlier than is considered fashionably
late. We rolled out of our Hive-Mind van and walked up to a house covered in
spider webbing, glowing pumpkins and a fog machine that just started. We
knocked on the door, the pharaoh was the one with the invite and he did the
talking, we all introduced ourselves and headed for the kitchen. All the booze
is kept in the kitchen.
He told me all about how vile and genocidal the romans were
to surrounding areas, the Gauls, the English and a few others. It sounded
pretty brutal, lots of violence and savagery that ended in taxes and
subjugation. He told me that history was full of people annihilating each other
for some reason or another. The conversation got a bit heavy when he went into
a story about Pol Pot and the tree. I excused myself and got another drink, I
wanted something lighter than the grim void of history.
After the drink I went out to the living room where a
makeshift dance floor invited me. Some pleasant goth industrial was flowing,
VNV Nation and some Skinny Puppy got me going and I quickly forgot about the
conversation with the Roman. A couple songs in and the doctor and nurse joined
me. We all danced together in a circle, glowing with the frantic mania of the
dance floor.
I could feel my heavy face make up running a bit and decided
it would be good to check up and refresh in the bathroom. I didn’t make it that
far.
On the way I was stopped by the Grim Reaper, a lady with a
long black cloak and a scythe. She stopped me and said I had to turn around. I
couldn’t go that way, the bathroom was in use. I nodded and turned around to
watch the dance floor while I waited my turn.
I felt a hand on my shoulder, it was the Reaper lady. She
didn’t say anything, but the weight of her hand felt extremely heavy and I
turned around in surprise. She was there in the hall way with her scythe in one
hand and her hand on my shoulder. The scythe looked real, just like the roman
armor. Her eyes looked mournful and sad. I asked her what was wrong, trying to
squirm out from under her hand. She said that it was time to go, it was time to
leave the party.
A bouncer, great, some muscle chick in a big cloak and a
real weapon is kicking me out of the party. I asked what I had done to get
kicked out and the Reaper just shook her head. She repeated that it was time to
go. I said I had to tell me friends and needed to call a ride. Again, the
Reaper shook her head again and the hand on my shoulder felt heavier, I felt
smaller and she felt larger.
I tried to call my friends names, I felt alone, and no one
responded. No one seemed to notice that we had blocked the hallway. I looked as
the Roman started chatting up someone else, the dance floor was crowed, the
lights all glowed with a hazy beauty. I just watched, dumb-founded and heavy. I
watched a for a few minutes.
I looked back at the Reaper, the face of the woman almost
looked mournful. I could look at her long, it reminded me of the Pol Pot story
that Roman had told me about. There wasn’t a reason, there wasn’t and
explanation. I looked back one more time to the party, realizing it would go on
without me, it didn’t need me.
A heavy sigh and I turned back to the Reaper and told her I
was ready. The great scythe rose up, its sharp blade seemed to cut the moments
in silent tatters. The fog machine turned up and the party goers continued
unaffected by the rolling mist. As the scythe rose up, moments seemed to
stretch out, the music disappeared and the fog crept in.
I stood there looking up at the curve of the scythe as it marched
down through the air, I could feel the fog rising up around me. My feet
disappeared and felt numb. A tingle and then nothing. I couldn’t move them, I
looked down and saw only the rising fog and heard the mechanical fog machine by
the front door. I looked up and saw the scythe getting lower, the edge fell in
slow motion.
I looked into the eyes of the Reaper, pleading, I begged her
to let me go. She shook her head and looked back at me with eyes filled with
tears. The scythe was nearly to me. The fog was nearly over my waist.
Each moment felt heavier, and the party seemed more distant,
the fog hiding any signs of the party. When the fog rose up to my face, I felt
the cool hardness of porcelain. The right side of my face felt wet, the smell
of bile was there for a moment, then was gone. I felt urge to breathe, but the
fog felt like cotton in my lungs, stuffing it with a thickness that did not
relent.
Then the scythe touched me, and the smooth edge cut all the
fog away, it cut the smells and the party. It cut all sound away, it pushed
away the stars and the night, it pushed away the clouds and the sky. I breathed
in deeply, the sudden relief was cool and welcome. I exhaled, and I felt my
arms and legs drifting away, the numbness was replaced by the feeling of
falling.
I fell and breathed in frantically. Each time I breathed the falling accelerated, my head began to spin, blackness filled everything, and I could not sense which direction I was falling. My last thought as I screamed a silent panic was to wake myself up. I realized I was already awake, I was dying, and it was the most honest moment of my life. Then like a river; my screams disappeared, my thoughts disappeared. With the unseen turbulence of decay, flowing nowhere to a waterless delta and then into an ocean of deeper blackness.