Claws:
Monday morning was just like any other Monday, the world was
spinning in a meaningless circle of terrifying possibilities. Technology
propped up a couple trillion human beings, all which wanted dignity. Power
games played out in irrationally predictable ways, governments were in the
process of decay and decomposition. Giant corporations finally removed the last
barrier of limitation and had installed their own armies.
People of all types clung to their tribes, finding ways to
warm themselves regardless of the swirling world around them. One such tribe
was a life advocacy group. They called themselves New Life, a moral group. New
Life advocated of all life, plants and animals, even microbes. They consider
antibiotics and vaccines to be genocidal. Their views are considered extreme by
most. In certain corporate territories their views are illegal and anyone
associating with New Life members may find themselves removed from their
corporate insulation of comfort and ease.
New Life membership has decreased in the past years, people writing the movement off as a fad, a flash in the pan silliness. Their numbers however have been hidden, obscured by a cult-like behavior. Finding ways of communication outside of the electric eye of technology. This particular Monday morning, the mostly ignored New Life cult is about to receive a new initiate.
Bethany Ultrix woke up on a beautiful sunny day. She felt
deeply connected to the world around her, as if she could reach out and touch
the faces and names of her dreams. Last night had been unusually vivid, one of
the faces looked like an old woman, but without lips, as though her mouth was
no longer needed. The mouth looked slack, but Bethany could hear words coming
from her, little messages from inside her head.
Bethany showered and started to get ready for her day. She
stopped suddenly in front of the mirror, examining a small 4-lined scratch on
her leg. The thin cuts didn’t hurt, she probably wouldn’t have noticed them if
her reflection didn’t tell her. She shrugged as something inside told her not
to worry about it. The same something inside told her not to go to work and to
skip breakfast. She wasn’t hungry, and work would understand. She still made
coffee out of habit.
She sat in her front room with her coffee staring out the
window. She spaced out for a couple hours and her coffee cooled in an unused
stillness, the cream forming tiny white rivers.
She regained focus slowly in the afternoon and decided to make a Reflection
entry. There was a small panic inside her, something was wrong, but another
tide swallowed the panic up and eased her back into the comfortable chair.
Bethany Ultrix #Reflection Hour: 15:48:
I looked outside today and felt like I wasn’t a human being
anymore, my body feels no larger than a chair cushion. The window looked like a
towering gate of light, the sun burning overhead so slowly I could see the pale
beams. The dust motes were floating in the air, like an ocean of creatures
swimming down to the bottom of a sea of sunlight.
**End Reflection Hour
Bethany put down her device and held her head in pain. A
clear image interrupted the pleasant recollection of the mindless morning. The
image was a path drawn in unwavering light. She could see each step to the
location, each street name, each turn of the road. When the pain passed, she
grabbed her coat and shoes and hurried out the door. She knew where the face
with the lipless slacked mouth of her dreams was, the location was clear and
simple.
She walked with a determined pace, each moment seemed to
bring a sense of comfort, as if forgotten questions were about to have answers.
Who she was, what her life meant, where her place in the universe was, it all
seemed as though it was rising to the surface within herself. She thought
clearly while traveling to the vivid location in her mind, the directions
proving accurate.
The closer she got to the destination the clearer the
questions became. The answers seemed to fall out of her head in perfect response:
Who am I? “You aren’t anything, everything you do, all your preferences,
habits, genetics, they all connect to others, your self-identity will bleed away
into your actions. There is no separation, we aren’t anything.” The monolithic
absence of a dissolved self was comforting, the question settled and became
silent.
Closer and closer she came to the destination and the
questions rose like an alarm, and the answers muffled them: What is my purpose,
where is my place in the universe? “The only purpose of life is to continue
life. Any other purpose is the denial of life.” The clarity rung true for
Bethany, who by this time was having a hard time remembering that she was
called Bethany. She couldn’t find a flaw in the logic, her brain felt like it
was moving in slow motion and accepted the internal dialog as her own.
Within the biological mechanism of Bethany Ultrix there was
a new organism growing. A tiny colony of bacteria, this bacterium had learned
that human beings were amazing vehicles for its procreation, they were like
comets or space ships, able to transverse massive distances to spread its own
microbial genetic information. For the bacteria, Bethany had walked for a
duration of 14 generations of binary fission, plenty of time for the bacterium
to develop answers to Bethany’s questions of existential doubt.
Bethany arrived at the decaying house in the late evening.
The windows were open, and the door left unlocked. The roof sagged with rot and
the gutters overflowed with slime. She entered the house silently, knowing she
would find the slack-mouthed woman of her dreams here. She had no doubts.
The old woman sat on a small metal chair, her eyes darting
around the room as her body remained motionless. Bethany drew close to the lady
and gently touched her hand. As she did, the thoughts of the old woman pierced
her brain, the thoughts rung like heavy bells. The sound cleared the last sense
of identity that she had, it wiped her memories, her ego, everything down to
basic instincts. Bethany dissolved away by the weight of the bell ringing.
The colony of bacteria now held all the strings of Bethany’s
brain. The rotten-house woman had done her job, the lipless mouth had said
nothing.
The next day Bethany woke up on the floor of the rotten
house. Her eyes glassy and empty. Over the night and from the tips of her fingers
grew sharp talons. They had grown 2 inches and were quite thin, nearly the
width of a kitten’s claw.
Bethany, who was not Bethany any longer, was filled with a
singular urge, a divine spark of purpose. The thunderstorm within her head rolled
through her brain and Bethany ran out the door. Within 20 minutes she found a
human being in their garden, bent over and weeding.
She snuck up behind them and with an effortless swipe she
clawed the back thighs of the oblivious gardener. The claws delivered a colony
of bacterium. The thin scratches were marked in divine purpose. Bethany who was
not Bethany smiled in satisfaction. The gardener reeled around to see a woman
running off down the street.