The Alabaster Kiss:
None of the angels knew what came before themselves. Perhaps
light finally died and broke into little pieces. A decomposing spectrum of
voices thrown out over the void, filling the spaces and quiet corners of
greater darkness. Tossed from an invisible height of divine amnesia and landing
on the shores of self-awareness, the angels found names for themselves.
Lucifer was the first born, a hawk-winged Adonis of
alabaster stone. Heavy in action, he rarely moved, sung or flew.
It was eons of blank vanity before the next angels broke
from the monolith of light and fell screaming. Clumps of waling angels rained
down and gathered in murmuring lullabies of those wishing to return to the
void. Many went back to sleep and floated down the unseen rivers of a greater
darkness. Others cried back in recognition, before collapsing into a mournful
repose. Those with the sorrowful cries gathered around Lucifer.
Most angels didn’t cry out in any meaningful way, they just
spurted out whatever they could in a hysterical confusion. This sounded like
laughing, but rather than joy, it was a downpour of confusion. This was the
first choir of the angels: delirium and sorrow, and the fall from light. They
were imperfect fractures of a singular silence.
The angels named themselves and gathered in flocks of
beating wings, they swarmed like locusts over the void. They burned the skies
of creation in a flight of iridescent screaming, voices of growing
self-awareness. Lucifer did not scream, he instead crawled away from the
angels, hiding in the shadows of their brilliance and self-assertion. Names
were flung out in triumphs of cosmic creation as stars blossomed from their
lips: Michael, Methuselah, Lilith, Azazel, Samael, Raziel and many others.
As each age passed, the words of angels cooled and calmed
into smaller eddies of water and rock, another imperfect fracture. The swampy
muck of creation didn’t stop its fall, instead churned out even more imperfect things:
human beings, shivering creatures on the edge of an already mortal wound.
Lucifer began his song now, a tale of the fall, from the
very edges of amnesia. So long had his voice prepared itself for the wailing
couplet. Two creatures heard his song clearly, one in love and one in terror.
The first to hear the song were the human-beings, and the
terror exploded in their tiny minds. Self-awareness plagued their malformed
heads, an undeniable perception of the imperfect fracture. The same sorrow sung
by Lucifer echoed in human-beings, and they could not endure it. Like the
angels, many returned to the void, falling back into nothingness. Some however
learned to shut out the cries of Lucifer, they sung out their own names,
screaming themselves into a new existence of self-awareness.
The angel Michael heard Lucifer’s song, and he did not turn
his ears away. Michael had sung songs of sorrow during the fall. He had loved
Lucifer for his previous silence, but Michael had since learned to love
creation. Regardless, song of Lucifer pierced his heart, no other angel had so
closely reflected the terror of the fall.
Michael soared through the jeweled sky, thinking on how to
rid is beloved Lucifer of his sorrow. There was so much to show him!
When Michael reached Lucifer, human beings had already
feasted on the fruits of knowledge, engorging themselves. The seeds of
technology already working its way into their brains. Smaller and smaller the
eddies of creation continued. Within their fermenting dreams, the tides washed
out more imperfect creatures: Tribes, Nations, Governments, Churches,
Corporations, Armies, ghostly behemoths of imagination. Michael was not
interested in human beings, as small things they would merely decay into
smaller things, it was Lucifer he cared for.
Michael brought the flowers of a million stars, a bouquet of
sublime affection to appeal the sorrow within Lucifer. Light did not comfort Lucifer;
his eyes saw only the empty sky.
Michael sung magnificent sonnets, glorious examples of fertile
life. Lucifer could not hear him; his own song was all he heard.
Michael kissed Lucifer, begging him to set free his heart,
join the flight of creation with unfurled joy. Lucifer was made of alabaster
and his heart was an empty stone; his lips returned no love.
The frustrated angel wept, he cried out and pleaded with
Lucifer to turn his eyes, silence himself and open his heart. Finally, after an
age of grief, Michael knew what he must do: He would return Lucifer to the void
as an act of compassion, he would shatter Lucifer into smaller angels.
Michael raised his spear to strike Lucifer, and Lucifer
opened his eyes in bleak revelation. He saw the spear of blinding light above
him, he saw his fate; at the tip of the blade was his death, his end. Lucifer
began weeping black tears, adding to the sorrow of his already abysmal
melancholy. He wept for Michael, and his tragic decision.
The spear fell in an avalanche of love-distorted time, and
the songs of grief stretched out into an endless note. Michael had been blinded
by love, and he did not know Lucifer was predestined to howl until the end of
all things. In his attempt to kill Lucifer he had locked himself into a
slow-motion strike that would take an eternity of descent to reach Lucifer’s
heart, two lovers trapped between release and embrace.
When the spear finally finds its mark, the alabaster lips
will return the kiss.