The Bath:
Martha and Helen spent their time developing a habit of impaling people on hypothetical spears. They assumed the worst of everyone, and after a few cups of coffee, they unearthed even more despicable facets of the person in question. For 20 years the sour notes of their character assassinations were reduced to shorthand nods and smirks. If they happened to be in a coffee shop or restaurant, everyone was fair game. They chewed on the staff, whispered about patrons, and even nibbled on the quick passerby with razor critique.
Martha and Helen nurtured each other, insofar they honed their critical imaginations of other human beings. Their observations weren’t necessarily true or false, and each critique led to a new and insufferable speculation. In every direction they saw failure, stopping of course, at their own conclusions.
Helen was a widow and Martha was divorced. They had been married to their respective husbands for long enough to have settled into an unmoving shape. Their similar experiences made commiseration easy and effortless, and after finding each other, they found little need for other company. By the end of their 21st year together they behaved much like twins; as 2 parts of a shared mind.
When Helen had her first heart attack, Martha’s mind started to show her a future without Helen. The details were decorated in the most painful and grievous outcomes, having only her miserable imagination to use. Helen however had a different sort of mental haunt. While in recovery, she began to see a future where she was running, or swimming. She could see her flabby arms, and her purple lined legs. She could see the sweat and the gray matted hair. The worst features of the mirror were shown dancing and shuffling about. She hated herself, or rather she could not turn away from the vision, even as her typical life resumed.
Until one day, Helen told Martha about her dreams, about how she hated seeing herself exhausted and enfeebled, like a withered and sloppy hag. Martha could see the image clearly, and began crying, and after some time, shared her nightmares of her dearest friend not being in her life. They held each other, and let the moment past, they did not speak about it again for a year. Their lives resumed their habits like nothing happened.
Helen had her second heart attack while she was driving. After the hospital called Martha, she rushed to the hospital with no regards for anyone. She hated her fellow human beings, and their existence. The cars were in her way, blocking the path to her star in the darkness. Such desperation makes people reckless, and in her narrow vision. Martha crashed into a 1979 Dodge Dart while running a stop sign.
The collision nearly killed Martha, and after 27 hours of intensive care, she stabilized, but remained in a coma.
Helen recovered slowly from her heart attack and despaired at the loss of her friend’s company. She visited her daily, holding her hand and whispering vile gossip about the front-desk personnel, the inept doctors, and the dreadful parade of horrible people passing through.
However, something happened during these visits, which began to affect Helen. Martha’s absence began to interrupt their habitual commiseration, even with the daily whispers. Helen started to think about herself again, and the idea of exercise did not seem to be as horrific. Little by little the internal voice of self-preservation showed Helen she could exercise without the sense of self-loathing, perhaps live long enough to see Helen if she comes out of the coma. The idea of seeing Martha again drove her to begin exercising.
Perhaps not having a loyal friend to commiserate with, or perhaps the second heart attack finally struct a chord within. Helen tried her best to become healthy, a new person. However, a lifetime of habits is not easily undone. Helen regressed month after month, unable to change into a new shape or fix her faulty heart.
Helen suffered from being only one person in a 2-person mind, and the second part was deep in a coma. She tried for a year, still half-despising the image in the mirror, still thinking half-thoughts in fractured conclusions. She began visiting her friend Martha longer each day.
6 months later something happened to Helen. In those moments of staring into her friend’s cold face. Morning after morning, conversations with no answers, questions with no replies, a pitiful soliloquizes rolled over Helen’s tongue; dry and desperate. Eventually the words dried up, and silence was all they had.
Helen decided she didn’t want to leave Martha in a coma and began making plans of a most ceremonial nature. She waited until one evening when the staff was thin. They had already grown to ignore her due to her regular attendance. She was not physically very strong, but Martha was only paper and bones at this point.
Helen put Martha into a wheelchair and dressed her with a blanket and hat. She wheeled her out of the hospital and managed to get her into her car with only minimal effort. The staff wouldn’t discover the empty bed until later in the evening during the regular shift rotation.
Once at Helen’s house, she drew a bath and wheeled her friend into the blue-tiled room. Candles were set around the edge of the windows and on the shelves, which usually contained towels. The dull light was pleasant and calm. Helen lowered Martha into the bath; her naked and wrinkled body offered no response, her body slack with indifference.
The candlelight soaked the room with a golden fuzz, smearing the wrinkles of Martha. Her body floated momentarily with the soft pressure of Helen’s hands as she lifted her up partially out from the water. The hospital crew was efficient in their cleaning, but not complete. Helen put on some soft music; the Twin Peaks album reminded her of conversations they indulged in, they effortlessly diced the love stories apart in mockery and caustic tongues, however tonight was different. This time the music didn’t seem as cliché or naïve. She looked down at her friend, having never told her what she meant, how much their conversations filled her with the same candlelight as this night. She gently used a washcloth, whipping the hospital smell, the grime of age, and her neglected tangled hair. This continued for a few songs until the caress of the cloth on her face erased some of the familiar scowl. With utmost care, Helen turned her over to wash her back, following her age spots, her frail body, and motionless limbs, until reaching the tips of her curled fingers. She lingered in Martha’s hands; unraveled the crooked fingers, placing her hand in hers, and talked to Martha, one last soliloquies of a fading duet, ending in the soft crackle of “I love you.” The tonal soundtrack played until her tears welled into heavy drops, falling into the cloudy waters.
Helen then submerged her friend and waited long enough to be sure she was gone. Then with a sense of relief, she called the hospital and told them what happened.